Yeah, so its been a while... But at any rate...
I was heading to check my email the other day and I see this advertisement about lowering your blood pressure. Something that is connected to some headphones that plays some tones, which the user is supposed to match his/her breathing to. It has some type of measuring tool that matches the users breathing first and then gradually helps them to slow their breathing rate down using the tones. So I started just slowing my breathing down just to see how it would effective I could be without the device. Not that I got high blood pressure, but I just figure, if I can get my breathing down to 7 inhales and exhales per minute without this device, why would anybody in their right mind pay for it? But this wasnt my revelation. My revelation was smoking. I felt like I was smoking. And it dawned on me that this is why people say that smoking relaxes them and calms their nerves, even though all the stuff inside of the cigarettes cause all types of problems in the body and do every thing but calm you. Its the breathing. Its the extended exhaling of the smoke that slows the heart rate, relaxes the walls of all the passageways that you blood is flowing through and, overall, decreases the blood pressure. You breathe long enough like that while laying down and you'll be sleep in no time.
Maybe Im making a connection here that really isnt but it makes logical since for the first time to me. I could never understand why people smoke or what the reason was behind it - why they smoke it when they get anxious, nervous, scared, etc. While I will never do it, I can finally understand how some people say somethin so deadly makes them feel so good. On the other hand, I aint a huge fan of getting lung cancer so, I'll just stick to breathing in oxygen.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
The birth and death of an a**hole...
So I wake up this morning realizing that I done changed a whole lot. Im feeling like a small piece of God and being down to earth, for a while, was kinda hard. But now it aint. So Ima tell you a story about how it became hard and what made it soft again.
I use to have a hard time apologizing. Didnt understand the need sometime to just be the bigger person and apologize just for the sake of someone else's feelings. Couldnt do it. I aint even wanna apologize when I was wrong. I'd just find a way to make up without ever having to say anything. That was good for me. It was easy. I also cast the same mentality on other people so it was easy to forgive. I would just let a lot of stuff roll off my back. Then, around the age of 17 or 18 or so, during a prayer, I felt the need to let that mentality go. God made me realize it was time to let that mentality go. So I tried..... I failed a few times, but I eventually got it to the point where it actually started to feel good to say "Im sorry" and not go through days of not speaking or just being angry over somethin stupid.
Yeah.... Helped me out a WHOLE lot. BUT.....
for some strange reason, as a result of finding apologizing so easy, forgiving actually became a lot harder.
Its hard to forgive and remain friends with the female who I took out for about 6 months fell out and got back together for another 6 or so; eatin at restuarants she cant pronounce the names of and probably couldnt afford without me but some how managed to put a "best friend" label on me during this second "togetherness" even though I had made my intentions very clear.
Its hard to forgive being told basically, "We can go out if somebody else dont come through for me." And then when confronted with the psychoticness of this notion, this person says something to the effect of "Forgive me for being me, but get over it." Yeah.... Suck it up like a kotex....
Its hard to forgive and continue picking up a phone call from someone who continuously makes plans and promises to do things at certain times and then always cancelling but not informing me until 2 hours (or days) after the appointed time - not even doing so on their own. More or less after I've called/texted and said something to the effect of "What happened Friday?"
Its hard to forgive someone who says they've always loved you yet you begin to realize that they operate on an "out of sight, out of mind" and manage to contact you when they find it convenient and need a self esteem booster or their current boyfriend (who they aint supposed to have anyway) done abused them - verbally and/or physically.
SO...... After being feed so much BS, I seemingly had no choice but to become an a**hole.
I replicated the behavior.
I told my boys, me and her were just friends. I told her that I loved her.
I inserted words like "might" infront of "call you back" with no intentions of doing so. Or saying things like "Im busy, Ima call you back if it aint too late when Im done" and Im just watchin TV.
I pretended to be sincere when in person with people and then found 16 reasons in my mind why it was OK to change my mind after I walked away.
Yeah..... A**hole.
But now I see. I see that by replicating the behavior, I had become them. I had become what I hated most; the thing that has given me gray hair and a hatred inside of people that only God himself could remove. Killed some good situations with good people. Yeah. I know. Just let it go. And I do now, but it wasnt always easy. God had to change me. He had to show me that whatever energy I give off is the same energy Im gonna get back from other people. Whatever I sow, I will reap. My mentality had to be completely remolded and reshaped. I had to understand that if I ever wanted to have fun with people, I had to be a fun person. If I ever wanted to be taken seriously, I needed to be a serious person. My word had to be my bond. If I wanted to be respected, I had to give respect. So that in the end it wont be "Here we go again" but instead "I like him, he's a good person." And regardless of how bad things may go between me and whoever Im dealing with, they'll never be able to say "He did me dirty." Never again...
I use to have a hard time apologizing. Didnt understand the need sometime to just be the bigger person and apologize just for the sake of someone else's feelings. Couldnt do it. I aint even wanna apologize when I was wrong. I'd just find a way to make up without ever having to say anything. That was good for me. It was easy. I also cast the same mentality on other people so it was easy to forgive. I would just let a lot of stuff roll off my back. Then, around the age of 17 or 18 or so, during a prayer, I felt the need to let that mentality go. God made me realize it was time to let that mentality go. So I tried..... I failed a few times, but I eventually got it to the point where it actually started to feel good to say "Im sorry" and not go through days of not speaking or just being angry over somethin stupid.
Yeah.... Helped me out a WHOLE lot. BUT.....
for some strange reason, as a result of finding apologizing so easy, forgiving actually became a lot harder.
Its hard to forgive and remain friends with the female who I took out for about 6 months fell out and got back together for another 6 or so; eatin at restuarants she cant pronounce the names of and probably couldnt afford without me but some how managed to put a "best friend" label on me during this second "togetherness" even though I had made my intentions very clear.
Its hard to forgive being told basically, "We can go out if somebody else dont come through for me." And then when confronted with the psychoticness of this notion, this person says something to the effect of "Forgive me for being me, but get over it." Yeah.... Suck it up like a kotex....
Its hard to forgive and continue picking up a phone call from someone who continuously makes plans and promises to do things at certain times and then always cancelling but not informing me until 2 hours (or days) after the appointed time - not even doing so on their own. More or less after I've called/texted and said something to the effect of "What happened Friday?"
Its hard to forgive someone who says they've always loved you yet you begin to realize that they operate on an "out of sight, out of mind" and manage to contact you when they find it convenient and need a self esteem booster or their current boyfriend (who they aint supposed to have anyway) done abused them - verbally and/or physically.
SO...... After being feed so much BS, I seemingly had no choice but to become an a**hole.
I replicated the behavior.
I told my boys, me and her were just friends. I told her that I loved her.
I inserted words like "might" infront of "call you back" with no intentions of doing so. Or saying things like "Im busy, Ima call you back if it aint too late when Im done" and Im just watchin TV.
I pretended to be sincere when in person with people and then found 16 reasons in my mind why it was OK to change my mind after I walked away.
Yeah..... A**hole.
But now I see. I see that by replicating the behavior, I had become them. I had become what I hated most; the thing that has given me gray hair and a hatred inside of people that only God himself could remove. Killed some good situations with good people. Yeah. I know. Just let it go. And I do now, but it wasnt always easy. God had to change me. He had to show me that whatever energy I give off is the same energy Im gonna get back from other people. Whatever I sow, I will reap. My mentality had to be completely remolded and reshaped. I had to understand that if I ever wanted to have fun with people, I had to be a fun person. If I ever wanted to be taken seriously, I needed to be a serious person. My word had to be my bond. If I wanted to be respected, I had to give respect. So that in the end it wont be "Here we go again" but instead "I like him, he's a good person." And regardless of how bad things may go between me and whoever Im dealing with, they'll never be able to say "He did me dirty." Never again...
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Fruit Roll-Up
Alright so, Im a grown man, right? And grown men are supposed to like grown-up things, right? So explain to me why I was in Sams club buying the super economy sized box of fruit roll-ups.... Yeah.... Now, I aint had a fruit roll-up since I was like 12. And Im like "Its time...." It was one of the greatest decisions Ive made this year. NO human being can resist the allure of the fruit snack. That ish is GOOD!!! Every. Single. Savory. Mouth watering bite is delicious.
OK so lets get to the point of the blog. I woke up this morning as angry as a small peice of hell. Dont even ask me what I was mad about cause I cant really even remember. It doesnt even matter. Do you know why? Cause I spotted the super economy-sized box of fruit roll-up and copped me TWO (2) before leaving from work today. Instantly upon touching them a huge kool-aid smile popped up on my face and everything that was bothering me didnt even matter anymore. And I know it aint just me. I got proof. My co-worker was arguing with her ex-husband; guy had her all teary eyed and stuff. I popped around the corner lookin like the Burger King man with a smile on my face and a fruit roll-up in my hand - forgot about it. The day got started over for her. The lady was smiling and laughing again. Dont believe me? I'll give you another example. Another co-worker of mine got disturbed by these annoying customers to the point where his head started hurting. I was like "Yo son, you want a fruit roll-up." Headache? - GONE!
Its a miracle worker. God knew what he was doing when he made the fruit roll-up. Its like it brings out the inner child in us or something that returns everything good about the innocence of our childhood rushing back to our brain all at once. Its one of the greatest feelings ever. The only problem is that its so small...
OK so lets get to the point of the blog. I woke up this morning as angry as a small peice of hell. Dont even ask me what I was mad about cause I cant really even remember. It doesnt even matter. Do you know why? Cause I spotted the super economy-sized box of fruit roll-up and copped me TWO (2) before leaving from work today. Instantly upon touching them a huge kool-aid smile popped up on my face and everything that was bothering me didnt even matter anymore. And I know it aint just me. I got proof. My co-worker was arguing with her ex-husband; guy had her all teary eyed and stuff. I popped around the corner lookin like the Burger King man with a smile on my face and a fruit roll-up in my hand - forgot about it. The day got started over for her. The lady was smiling and laughing again. Dont believe me? I'll give you another example. Another co-worker of mine got disturbed by these annoying customers to the point where his head started hurting. I was like "Yo son, you want a fruit roll-up." Headache? - GONE!
Its a miracle worker. God knew what he was doing when he made the fruit roll-up. Its like it brings out the inner child in us or something that returns everything good about the innocence of our childhood rushing back to our brain all at once. Its one of the greatest feelings ever. The only problem is that its so small...
Take it slow
So Im sitting here in my car and I put the Little Brother Minstrel Show CD in my CD player and I come accross track number 7. I think its called "Take it slow". At any rate on one of the verses the guy says something to the effect of:
"Sometimes I feel like Im from another world
when I try to tell a woman just exactly where I stand at
I wanna girl when I wanna a girl
and when I dont wanna girl
I wanna girl who understand that
and thas some hard sh*t to explain
to a woman whose in love with you
its a pitiful thing
but now I figure
that I dont wanna play around
but I dont wanna settle down
thats a mans dilemma."
And then it hit me.... This is exactly how I feel. Its why I try to fix jacked up situations from my past sometimes even though it aint work the first time. Mad I caught a lil ministry from a rap cd but I couldnt put it into words before and it felt good to realize I wasnt the only one - But then I guess that just makes this hip-hop and not rap at all. I seriously dont wanna play around but really cant settle down. Thats evident in the fact that I wont cheat on a girl, I'll just let them go - cause no woman will ever understand any of that quote, so I really dont bother to explain it. Then I return and take the blunt of the blame cause anything spoken along those lines wont do anything to help the situation. The next few months are spent trying to make her believe that I aint as bad as I sometimes seem to be even though sometimes it does seem like you dont mean anything, but you do. Infact many times you mean everything - atleast outside of God and my family. Its a backwards line of thinking that says "Be happy if I get mad at you and never call you again, cause if I keep callin you like nothin happened then I obviously didnt really care (unless I done that so much that Im fed up) - But then right here is where I expect you to call to show me that I wasnt the only one who was caring." Yeah, that sounds crazy but Im sure deep down inside whoever your next man is would co-sign, if he was really honest with himself. So I've been fixin myself to learn how be calm and content. Never settling, just understanding that if she understands who God is and believes, knows how to act in public, is attractive and attracted to me, can keep her word and do what she say she gone do; this may very well be my dime peice - the queen that I have prayed for all my life. And I may as well stop lookin and make this lady my wife.
I recognize that nobody wants to be told "sometimes I wanna be bothered and sometimes I dont" but thats real. Funny thing is that I dont consider any of it playin games. Playin games would be sayin I love you when I dont really feel that way or courtesy callin when I dont feel like talkin. Playin games would be me not picking up the phone even though I wanna talk but I cant always be available cause I want the person on the other side to want me more. Thats what playin games is all about. I dont play games - I go away. Maybe it takes too long for me to return. Maybe my "take it slow" is movin a lil bit too slow. I dont know, but I will make an effort to make an effort the next time somebody makes an effort to understand "that". Yeah...
"Sometimes I feel like Im from another world
when I try to tell a woman just exactly where I stand at
I wanna girl when I wanna a girl
and when I dont wanna girl
I wanna girl who understand that
and thas some hard sh*t to explain
to a woman whose in love with you
its a pitiful thing
but now I figure
that I dont wanna play around
but I dont wanna settle down
thats a mans dilemma."
And then it hit me.... This is exactly how I feel. Its why I try to fix jacked up situations from my past sometimes even though it aint work the first time. Mad I caught a lil ministry from a rap cd but I couldnt put it into words before and it felt good to realize I wasnt the only one - But then I guess that just makes this hip-hop and not rap at all. I seriously dont wanna play around but really cant settle down. Thats evident in the fact that I wont cheat on a girl, I'll just let them go - cause no woman will ever understand any of that quote, so I really dont bother to explain it. Then I return and take the blunt of the blame cause anything spoken along those lines wont do anything to help the situation. The next few months are spent trying to make her believe that I aint as bad as I sometimes seem to be even though sometimes it does seem like you dont mean anything, but you do. Infact many times you mean everything - atleast outside of God and my family. Its a backwards line of thinking that says "Be happy if I get mad at you and never call you again, cause if I keep callin you like nothin happened then I obviously didnt really care (unless I done that so much that Im fed up) - But then right here is where I expect you to call to show me that I wasnt the only one who was caring." Yeah, that sounds crazy but Im sure deep down inside whoever your next man is would co-sign, if he was really honest with himself. So I've been fixin myself to learn how be calm and content. Never settling, just understanding that if she understands who God is and believes, knows how to act in public, is attractive and attracted to me, can keep her word and do what she say she gone do; this may very well be my dime peice - the queen that I have prayed for all my life. And I may as well stop lookin and make this lady my wife.
I recognize that nobody wants to be told "sometimes I wanna be bothered and sometimes I dont" but thats real. Funny thing is that I dont consider any of it playin games. Playin games would be sayin I love you when I dont really feel that way or courtesy callin when I dont feel like talkin. Playin games would be me not picking up the phone even though I wanna talk but I cant always be available cause I want the person on the other side to want me more. Thats what playin games is all about. I dont play games - I go away. Maybe it takes too long for me to return. Maybe my "take it slow" is movin a lil bit too slow. I dont know, but I will make an effort to make an effort the next time somebody makes an effort to understand "that". Yeah...
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Love and Sleep
Alright so normally I dont just write a lot of mess in this blog, but Im sitting at my job just tryin to stay awake. The typing is so sloppy Im tempted to just leave them uncorrected because fixing my mistakes is starting to get really irritating. But I just gotta keep my eyes open. Please dont judge my abilities by this poor blog. My other stuff is much, much better. Infact you should stop reading this and read some of the other post. I am sllleeeeeeppppyyy and very much so ready to go. I dont even have any thing to say and Im probably just wasting your time if youre reading this cause I dont really have any thought provoking thoughts. I really dont have any thoughts at all. Im gonna make an attempt at something just to make an attempt at something.
I read my bible this morning. I read in 1st Corinthians chapter 13; maybe like the first 10 verses or so. So its talking about love. Its talking about how love is long suffering and kind; how it keeps no records of past wrong doings and evils, etc. It says love isnt jealous and doesnt boast or anything like that. After reading this, I started doing a lil soul searching. I started to look at my life and search for any instances, in any one of any of my past relationships where I was able to go through "long suffering" with somebody or was able to continually forgive someone for their "wrong doings" as they used me for a human toilet. I cant say I have felt that way for any female. Now I know that this scripture isnt referring specifically to love inside of an opposite sex relationship; moreso along the lines of "love thy neighbor", treat people how you wanna be treated and "forgive 7 times 70..." BUT the same rules should apply. You shouldnt treat your significant other any worse than you treat your best friend. Even if your best friend is just your bitch............. (female dog).
Im sorry. I just couldnt resist.
Anyway. After realizing that I hadnt felt "that feeling" anytime recently, I began to question whether or not I was capable with my current line of thinking. It reminded me of a magazine article I read a while ago in some magazine which was talkin about this guy and his new found girlfriend. Now, the writer of the article was lookin at this guy and observing his actions and he was talkin about how the guy was all up under her and probably would have done anything this female would have asked him to; describing him as being relatively "soft" and "whipped". Then the writer had a moment; he got a revelation. He said "maybe this guy has it right and we've all had it wrong all this time." I think the writer began to see exactly how scarred and bitter men have become by his own, very common, thought process. I think society.... On second thought I dont even feel like getting into how society has shaped our thought processes and gender bias and stuff like that. I dont feel like it. Society is jacked up. Period.
Yeah, so.... Im done talkin now. Im still sleepy. Im sorry for wasting your time if I did, but oh well. Thanks for keeping me up. Peace.
I read my bible this morning. I read in 1st Corinthians chapter 13; maybe like the first 10 verses or so. So its talking about love. Its talking about how love is long suffering and kind; how it keeps no records of past wrong doings and evils, etc. It says love isnt jealous and doesnt boast or anything like that. After reading this, I started doing a lil soul searching. I started to look at my life and search for any instances, in any one of any of my past relationships where I was able to go through "long suffering" with somebody or was able to continually forgive someone for their "wrong doings" as they used me for a human toilet. I cant say I have felt that way for any female. Now I know that this scripture isnt referring specifically to love inside of an opposite sex relationship; moreso along the lines of "love thy neighbor", treat people how you wanna be treated and "forgive 7 times 70..." BUT the same rules should apply. You shouldnt treat your significant other any worse than you treat your best friend. Even if your best friend is just your bitch............. (female dog).
Im sorry. I just couldnt resist.
Anyway. After realizing that I hadnt felt "that feeling" anytime recently, I began to question whether or not I was capable with my current line of thinking. It reminded me of a magazine article I read a while ago in some magazine which was talkin about this guy and his new found girlfriend. Now, the writer of the article was lookin at this guy and observing his actions and he was talkin about how the guy was all up under her and probably would have done anything this female would have asked him to; describing him as being relatively "soft" and "whipped". Then the writer had a moment; he got a revelation. He said "maybe this guy has it right and we've all had it wrong all this time." I think the writer began to see exactly how scarred and bitter men have become by his own, very common, thought process. I think society.... On second thought I dont even feel like getting into how society has shaped our thought processes and gender bias and stuff like that. I dont feel like it. Society is jacked up. Period.
Yeah, so.... Im done talkin now. Im still sleepy. Im sorry for wasting your time if I did, but oh well. Thanks for keeping me up. Peace.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Colorblind
I feel a little strange. I feel strange because the world is forcing me to see color more than I want too. I want to be one of those people who dont see the lines or disparity - BUT unfortunately the people in power are making that nearly impossible.
Over the past few weeks I've seen quite a few things that made me think Dave Chappelle was right; everytime those politicians speak and say words like "Minority", they really just wanna say Nigga. Im seeing a chain of events thats occurring to further downplay the importance of the darker skinned american throughout history. It started out with the boy king movie NOT being played during black history month; something that used to be played every black history month. "Oh no we dont need to play that, they dont really wanna watch that anyway. Lets just put on another re-run of the Waynes Brothers. They like to laugh".
We went from that to it not being neccessary to apologize for slavery. With a response to our request that was basically a mockery of their request. Saying something to the affect of "We cant just go around apologizing for everything everybody did throughout history. And besides, I wasnt even alive back then". The bad part about it was that the general public went on a rampage about the topic in an ad on the AJC in which many people showed their true colors. Racism is pumping through the veins of many red blooded americans. I know a lot of people are going to say "You just now figuring that out?!?" but its different to know it some where deep in your mind versus hearing several people say it out of their mouths. I had a real Mario Winans moment - I dont wanna know. Suspecting it and seeing the monster face to face is a huge difference. BUT... We keep moving. Right after all of that we see a proposal for a month to celebrate the confederacy and its "integral" part in US history breeze through the powers that be without opposition. ????? Im speachless after that one..... but there is still more.
This Don Imus fella calls the Lady Rutgers basketball team "Nappy Headed Hos" and its another uproar. The station he works for loses two of its major advertisers during his show, one being Proctor and Gamble and the other escapes me right now, and Imus gets a mere 2 weeks suspension. Now normally, I could care less about what people say but then I had an "A time to kill moment". I asked myself "What if Imus was black and he referred to the Lady Tennessee Vols as 'Stringy Haired Hos' AND loss two main advertisers?!? What would have been his punishment then? I'll tell you. He would have been fired. I dont care how long he's been there. I dont care about his community service. I dont care about his past history. He would have been outta there that day. No debate on CNN. No meeting with the team. You wanna know how I know it's a double standard?!? Look at the Tim Hardaway situation. Tim Hardaway says he doesnt like homosexual people after being asked his opinion and he loses everything that even resembles a job; all endorsements - everything. Still not convinced?!? Look at the guy commentating the at that Florida Gator college football game when that fight broke out. He makes a statement something to the effect of "Thats what Im talking about. You bring that mess in the swamp and you get stomped".
Yeah.... Gone.
Anybody who even remotely tarnishes the image of the company is gone withouth question. There's no apologizing and getting your job back. There's no 2 week suspension. You are jobless.
The latest thing was the Corretta Scott King issue. Now while I think the legislator may have made a slightly extreme analogy by saying it was like calling Corretta Scott King a "nappy headed nigger" when they rejected her photo from being hung in the capital, she was who she was and she did what she did and if she was not a "nappy headed nigger", we probably wouldn't be having this conversation. BUT maybe Im wrong.... Maybe she WAS just another black lady, married to just another black man, who doesnt have his own national holiday, and maybe she didnt have 4 presidents at her funeral making speeches about her like the knew her personally when they probably didnt.
Truth be told, I dont wanna see any of this. I wanna feel like our world is perfect; like we have already gotten past all of this stupidity. But our ignorance as human beings make it impossible for ignorance to be bliss.
Over the past few weeks I've seen quite a few things that made me think Dave Chappelle was right; everytime those politicians speak and say words like "Minority", they really just wanna say Nigga. Im seeing a chain of events thats occurring to further downplay the importance of the darker skinned american throughout history. It started out with the boy king movie NOT being played during black history month; something that used to be played every black history month. "Oh no we dont need to play that, they dont really wanna watch that anyway. Lets just put on another re-run of the Waynes Brothers. They like to laugh".
We went from that to it not being neccessary to apologize for slavery. With a response to our request that was basically a mockery of their request. Saying something to the affect of "We cant just go around apologizing for everything everybody did throughout history. And besides, I wasnt even alive back then". The bad part about it was that the general public went on a rampage about the topic in an ad on the AJC in which many people showed their true colors. Racism is pumping through the veins of many red blooded americans. I know a lot of people are going to say "You just now figuring that out?!?" but its different to know it some where deep in your mind versus hearing several people say it out of their mouths. I had a real Mario Winans moment - I dont wanna know. Suspecting it and seeing the monster face to face is a huge difference. BUT... We keep moving. Right after all of that we see a proposal for a month to celebrate the confederacy and its "integral" part in US history breeze through the powers that be without opposition. ????? Im speachless after that one..... but there is still more.
This Don Imus fella calls the Lady Rutgers basketball team "Nappy Headed Hos" and its another uproar. The station he works for loses two of its major advertisers during his show, one being Proctor and Gamble and the other escapes me right now, and Imus gets a mere 2 weeks suspension. Now normally, I could care less about what people say but then I had an "A time to kill moment". I asked myself "What if Imus was black and he referred to the Lady Tennessee Vols as 'Stringy Haired Hos' AND loss two main advertisers?!? What would have been his punishment then? I'll tell you. He would have been fired. I dont care how long he's been there. I dont care about his community service. I dont care about his past history. He would have been outta there that day. No debate on CNN. No meeting with the team. You wanna know how I know it's a double standard?!? Look at the Tim Hardaway situation. Tim Hardaway says he doesnt like homosexual people after being asked his opinion and he loses everything that even resembles a job; all endorsements - everything. Still not convinced?!? Look at the guy commentating the at that Florida Gator college football game when that fight broke out. He makes a statement something to the effect of "Thats what Im talking about. You bring that mess in the swamp and you get stomped".
Yeah.... Gone.
Anybody who even remotely tarnishes the image of the company is gone withouth question. There's no apologizing and getting your job back. There's no 2 week suspension. You are jobless.
The latest thing was the Corretta Scott King issue. Now while I think the legislator may have made a slightly extreme analogy by saying it was like calling Corretta Scott King a "nappy headed nigger" when they rejected her photo from being hung in the capital, she was who she was and she did what she did and if she was not a "nappy headed nigger", we probably wouldn't be having this conversation. BUT maybe Im wrong.... Maybe she WAS just another black lady, married to just another black man, who doesnt have his own national holiday, and maybe she didnt have 4 presidents at her funeral making speeches about her like the knew her personally when they probably didnt.
Truth be told, I dont wanna see any of this. I wanna feel like our world is perfect; like we have already gotten past all of this stupidity. But our ignorance as human beings make it impossible for ignorance to be bliss.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
That "Graveyard Love"
There was a term my sister use to use a while ago called "Graveyard Love". This is that "love" that some people have where one person has to die before they seperate. And we aint figuratively speaking either. We talking bout people committing suicide or killing each other over it. But mainly it was a joke the equivalent of calling somebody "whipped" or somethin like that.
Yeah so...
Im down at my job yesterday when somethin crazy happens. This lady gets shot by this man in the lobby of the Omni hotel which is attached to the CNN building, which is right up the street from where I work. Now, normally I probably would have been over there getting some snacks but today I was at the post office mailing off some important documents. At any rate, I hear about this story when I get back and there's all these cloudy details - two men had a shootout, gang violence, the man died, etc. Finally, all the information got cleared up and we find out its an argument between a man and a lady, the man gets mad, shoots her and then the security guard on duty shoots him. The lady dies and the man is rushed to the hospital and operated on. Now I asked myself a question, what could possibly make this man so mad that he would shoot her? I mean, I dont understand. If she said something crazy, how about walking away, deleting a phone number, or if it came down to it and he just had to get physical, why couldn't he just hit her once in the top of the head so it wouldnt leave a bruise? Why he had to shoot the girl? Now, truth be told, I don't know the situation. She coulda did somethin really low down, like sleep with his daddy/bestfriend/brother/all three or somethin, but come on, man. And I don't know how true it is but I've heard some rumor/report that she was pregnant. So now you got two people who have passed away over some mess that they probably coulda just talked about or just let go. It is probably easier for me to say that since, to some people, I have a reputation for cutting people off and them not even knowing why, which is both good and bad at the same time. But I cant think of any one of my past relationships that I feel like the girl needed to be shot or even anything that I have done that woulda got me killed. Maybe Im wrong, though..... Coulda been that "Graveyard Love" for real.....
Yeah so...
Im down at my job yesterday when somethin crazy happens. This lady gets shot by this man in the lobby of the Omni hotel which is attached to the CNN building, which is right up the street from where I work. Now, normally I probably would have been over there getting some snacks but today I was at the post office mailing off some important documents. At any rate, I hear about this story when I get back and there's all these cloudy details - two men had a shootout, gang violence, the man died, etc. Finally, all the information got cleared up and we find out its an argument between a man and a lady, the man gets mad, shoots her and then the security guard on duty shoots him. The lady dies and the man is rushed to the hospital and operated on. Now I asked myself a question, what could possibly make this man so mad that he would shoot her? I mean, I dont understand. If she said something crazy, how about walking away, deleting a phone number, or if it came down to it and he just had to get physical, why couldn't he just hit her once in the top of the head so it wouldnt leave a bruise? Why he had to shoot the girl? Now, truth be told, I don't know the situation. She coulda did somethin really low down, like sleep with his daddy/bestfriend/brother/all three or somethin, but come on, man. And I don't know how true it is but I've heard some rumor/report that she was pregnant. So now you got two people who have passed away over some mess that they probably coulda just talked about or just let go. It is probably easier for me to say that since, to some people, I have a reputation for cutting people off and them not even knowing why, which is both good and bad at the same time. But I cant think of any one of my past relationships that I feel like the girl needed to be shot or even anything that I have done that woulda got me killed. Maybe Im wrong, though..... Coulda been that "Graveyard Love" for real.....
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