Jim Jones... The fashion icon?!?

My homeboy showed me this video last night and at first I was buggin a lil bit but then I got to thinkin... This fella DID pop off a LOT of different hip hop fashion styles and he gets NO credit for puttin them styles into the mainstream. Couldnt really say too much when he got done...

Message to Blockbuster...

Ahhh. I had to tell the cashier at blockbuster something tonight. I made a request. I asked him to have blockbuster please stop calling me. I said: "Stop callin my house bout these late movies!!! I know the movies are late! I got the movies AT MY HOUSE!!!" He laughed but a part of me was so serious. LOL! Why they keep havin that automated voice call my phone askin me about these movies I got out like I dont know that I got em?!? Im feelin like that fella on Menace II Society when he turned to Sam Jackson and said: "I'll pay you when I FEEL like it!" I dont know. Im buggin. But if I rent 3 movies at once so I wont have to keep goin back up there, everything aint gone get watched at once. And I dont want netflix or nothin like that where I gotta wait forever to get the movie I want. I wanna go up to blockbuster on tuesday nights and get the new releases. But they just gone have to understand that if they say aint no late fees; it aint no late fees and I just might turn my movies in late. But anyway... Let me stop bein stupid. LOL!

McGangsta?!? Not whassup.

Everytime I see something like this I get upset. Maybe I shouldnt be, but I am. Some of you will understand, others wont.

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Why go to college when you can get money?

Here we have a kid who has found a work around to having to go to college for one year before going to the NBA. On one side Im thinking "This is smart. Go ahead and get that EXP and money now. I cant hate..." On the other side Im thinking "leave it to a nigga to find a way to get out of going to college after our elders worked so hard for us to get in..." I could be wrong, though...

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The Week One...

FINALLY!!! Something to write about. All this time, the only thing thats been worth talking about was politics. And I refuse to talk about McPalin or O'Biden. But now... Now Bishop Weeks is getting a reality show to find a wife. Im thinking to myself "who in their right mind would be on a reality TV show with this man who is KNOWN to have smashed up his previous wife's face?!?" And then I thought about it. This is America; The home of the brave; the home of the free; the home of the Flavor Flav show... Right... If ther are three different sets of remotely attractive (and some VERY unattractive) women in this world who would kiss on this man, there are at least 5 different women in this world who would chase after this -Even if it is just for his status. But this isn't my issue with this man. My issue is the fact that this minister is making a mockery out of the sacred institution that God ordained; reducing it to a TV reality show was already bad, but having a minister co-sign on it is a little bit much for me. But maybe I'm wrong... Take a look here.

Saturday June 21st - Alone at the Job

10:04 Not too long logged in at the job. No calls yet. Had to run down stairs to get this Pot Pie out of the microwave in the cafeteria. Gotta eat this mess from CVS since I cant leave the desk today. Kinda trash... Life without a break... It should taste ok though.

10:23 Its starting to sink in now. A couple calls outta the way and Im still alone. No. My co-worker isnt late again today. He's not coming...

10:39 Talking to relative about some computer stuff.

10:57 You know its getting bad when you start searching for stories online about the decline in the demand for oil and the decrease in price per barrel.

11:15 I gotta go to the bathroom... Dont know whether to leave the phone in available and sprint for it or shut down for 2 minutes to go do a number 1. Better not take the risk...

11:17 Im back. No harm done. Emails in the inbox. Customers askin for stuff. Fixed it. Replied. Done... Now go away. LOL!

11:33 Fighting depression. I wanna cry. Where is my girlfriend?!? Should I just call or text a random person?!? I dont wanna talk to most of these people in my phone but here comes lonely... and sleepy... Forget them all, though. Better take care of the business before this deadline.

12:15 Man, this clock is moving slow! No break today. No fresh air. Just the hum of my very dated desktop... slowly putting me to sleep... I could really do this from home... Save me some "$4 a gallon" gas. I do detest mondays, though. Hate them. Hate getting up earlier than usual... And I hate hearing coworkers laugh and joke while I get screamed at on the phone by a customer who doesnt understand that simple things become really complex when everything is broken.

12:27 Phone call.

12:35 Highlight of my morning. I get a phonecall asking about going on a double date. Probably to the movies she says. But there's a problem. The problem is with me. The problem is that last night went from being a "Hey, how about we chill at your house after I get off work for a lil bit and you drop me off at the train station afterwards? I can be home by 11" to its after 1am and I think I hear my phone buzzing on the couch... I better go... Will I still go out tonight? Dont know yet. A part of me wants to. The other part of me says, "If you dont sleep when you get home, gettin up at 6am tomorrow for church is gonna give you a small taste of hell before entering into the sanctuary. We'll see.

12:43 Bubble guts. Not good. Bathroom break.

12:47 Back in record time. Time usually flies after 1. Problem is... 1 aint here yet... I gotta get away for a second or else this day will take forever...

2:25 TELEPHONE!!! Wasnt too bad. Talked to my mother and got a call from my lady friend; it kinda sped time up a lil bit. Unfortunately, I still got another 2.5 hours. Three calls just came back to back. This better stop...

2:51 Replying back to people who personally emailed me days ago. The work has been taken care of. Some more calls came in. Its the same lady. Cant call it nit picking. She spent her money. But I have seen bigger issues. By the way... COME ON 3 O'CLOCK!!! What is taking so LOOOONNNGGGG?!?!?!?

3:43 I got the cotton mouth. Im sleepy. I wanna pass out. But now I got work to do. Not all that cool.

4:01 Just had to say somethin at this time. Its a benchmark moment for me. One more hour...

4:21 More people are calling me. Why?!?

4:33 Almost home. My work is done. Im tired of typing this... Im tired of reading this... Im gone... Just know that this will have a happy ending...


4:58 I have survived... Peace.

The "Beautiful People Problem"

I may have wrote on this before but at any rate...


So today... Today Im watchin CNN with my sister and they did a lil blip about how some study was done by some college somewhere in the U.S. of A. that said that the happiest couples/marriages are those that are composed of an ugly/homely lookin man and a gorgeous woman. Now, when I heard this, it seemed to be more evidence to support a belief that I've had for about 7 years now; two beautiful people cant be together. I've had my share of arguments with friends of every shape size and color about this. They disagree with me, but Ive had a stance that two beautiful people cannot be together for quite a while now. And now CNN is co-signing with their "Ugly men make the best husbands" report.

A lot of my mentality came from watchin and over hearing the issues that my mother's and sister's friends would talk to them about. They would call with some crazy sob story about how some sorry fella done sat back and done somethin ridiculous to them but they still love them and "get them out of their system". You know, that BS "so deep in this blind and blissful love" mentality they developed from listening to too much Babyface as a teenager. Sometimes I even got sucked in to talkin to them about their problems so they could get a "guy's perspective" on the situation. After looking at these girls and women, between the ages of 16 and 45, I noticed that they all had one of two very common denominators: either they were ugly and they didnt know it so they continued to strive for some guy who was out of their league and tried to play everyone else OR they were beautiful and didnt understand that, with the scarcity of good (100% straight) men in conjunction with the fact that 75% of single women on this earth will do almost ANYTHING to have one of those, they just might wanna deal with the guy who genuinely loves them instead of trying to hold on to this dream guy that they've been searching for for the last 15 years since they divorced their last husband.

QUESTION: Do you know any "Popular Jock/Cheerleader" couples that survived after highschool?!? Cause I dont. They dont survive. (Especially if the fella didnt go to the pros...)

The problem comes along with the term "Superficiality". You see, Im a good lookin guy. So I know there's this mentality deep down inside of every good lookin person that says "this girl/guy better not mess up, cause if they do, I promise Im finna upgrade the first opportunity I get!" And thats how it goes. And endless cycle of someone waiting on the other party to mess up cause they werent ever happy to begin with. There's also fact that a woman trying a good looking man who aint gone cheat these days is like trying to find a prostitute without aids in Swaziland, Africa.

I know this lady; She's got to be a good 47 - 48 years old now. She got this guy who likes her and this fella is a straight square, but he tries so hard to impress her. I mean, this guy worships the ground she walks on and she lets him try but continues to shoot him down. Now, the sad part is that he didnt learn what I learned so long ago - beautiful people who havent learned how to deal with the "Beautiful People Problem" will never be with someone society deems as normal. Its nothing he did, its just the facts. As long as she feels like she deserves Male #1, anything less than Male #1 is settling and a person of her caliber cant be with just anybody. The situation is further complicated because Male #1 dont wanna settle down cause he wants to be 100% sure he got all his escapades outta his system before he gets locked into some mess. She cant understand why Male #1 wont settle down, even though she's doing everything he ask and everything she possibly can to please him. And her woes wont end until she realizes that Male #2 is trying just as hard for her as she is for Male #1, stops looking at his flaws and starts looking at the fact that she finally has somebody in her life who aint gone put her second. She aint figured that out yet, so shes gonna be single for a while. She is the middle piece holding together the "Beautiful People Problem".

Disclaimer: This may only apply to large cities where the number of good looking men is much smaller in proportion to beautiful women AND ugly people with a "false self-image" (read: dont know theyre ugly) and beautiful people with low self-esteem can throw a monkey wrench into the equation...

This changed my life...

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Its stupid... I know... but the message at the end made me think.... "See how easy it is to miss what you're not looking for?!?" Forget the video and think about the other stuff in life that you want. Sometimes you can be striving so hard for the wrong thing, or just be completely distracted by a lot of "extra-curricular activities" in your life, that you can completely miss out on what you are supposed to have; It can pass right on by and you wont even notice it... Crazy...

Employee of the Year

Employee of the year awards go out soon. Some people say I got a chance at winning. I don't know. Part of me is so modest and feels undeserving. "I'm apart of a great team" it says. "Others are much more deserving than me" it says. The other, slightly arrogant, part of me says "Why not? I would be a perfect poster boy for this award, and plus, I'm looking REAL good today in my suit." Now, I cant say that I'm under qualified for it; I have numerous employee of the month awards this year as well as employee of the quarter, but is it enough? Do my "intangibles", personal letters from customers, and self sacrificing for the "team" support me winning in areas where my numbers do not? I don't know... But I do want my co-workers who are reading this to know - if I lose, I wont be mad... after I win the next award. And if I win, its alright to put aside your hate for a few days and congratulate me, take me out to eat and buy me smoothies in the winter time.


UPDATE: How about nobody from our department gets anything?!? Crazy, I know. Basically, it was a situation where some departments that were supposed to do something didnt do it so nobody gets anything. Thats the long story short. I was told by the manager that I was basically the winner but because other departments along the same vein of our type of operation didnt pull weight there was no "competition" and thus no award was given. Crazy. I should be more upset than I am, but if its one thing that Ive learned over the years of battling self esteem issues as an adolescent is that another person's opinion doesnt really matter anyway. You gotta know who you are for yourself before anybody else does. And while I may not be able to put this "supposed to have had employee of year" on my resume, whats done is done; time cant be turned back on it. I wont let this overlook bring me down. I dont need somebody else to validate me. Its just the principle I guess that makes it come off a lil sideways. This just feels like one of those situations that'll prolly hit me a few days from now as to how jacked up it really was and be pissed off about it, but who knows, part of me is kinda numb to silly stuff like this... I had to buy my own employee of the month T-shirt when it took forever for me to win what I felt like I deserved. I wore my shirt about once a month for about 3 to 4 months before I got it and Ive been winning every since. This year I was award EOTM 4 times and EOTQ twice; basically taking care of half the years awards. In the end though, it doesnt matter - Im still gonna have to dress myself in the morning and walk in this place and listen to these customers complain. Until I can get someone to bathe and dress me in the morning, preparing me for my journey to my living room where I will be laid up next to something beautiful and brownskinned, I still aint where I need to be...

Who else needs to say something?

All I got to say is: "What's next?"

If Tiger Woods forgot that his skin got pigment in it, he surely should understand that by now. He gone have to come off all that cablasian foolishness. First it was the collard greens and fried chicken comment, then the "they are gonna have to lynch him" comment and now this.... I dont know where these white people are getting this sensation in their bodies that its ok to make "nigger" jokes. It seems like somebody somewhere along the lines of the production process shoulda stopped this from happening. Yet Tiger keeps shruggin it off and lettin them get away with it.... and they keep doing it to him. Seems like maybe he needs to legally change his name from Tiger to another word that means cat....

Children of Passion (This aint cool but Ima write it anyway...)

The world seems to be getting more and more full of "Children of Passion"... You're probably wondering what Im talking about when I say that... Im talking about ugly people. Children of Passion have two parents who decided to let go of all their inhibitions for one night and succumb to the "desires of their heart". Now, maybe its a situation of being exposed to so many different types of "beautiful" people through the media that we have become de-sensitized and can no longer be satisfied by what used to be good enough to be deemed beautiful - and I'll revisit that notion but part of me just feels like people are just "humping" any and everybody now. Maybe Im wrong for askin it, but when was the last time you seen someone on the street that made you think "You know what?!? If had to end it all right now with her/him, I would do it". I aint seen that.

Now it could be the fact that Im just extra picky and may never really be satisfied but I aint gone accept that; Id rather blame it on the media for warping my perception. It ruined us all. Cant even see an article now without the broad or fella in the advertisement bein all airbrushed up, tummy tucked, sucked, scraped, chiseled and drawn up. We cant even tell what a real woman is supposed to look like to even appreciate her anymore. Maybe this is the reason it has seemed that the Jet beauty of the week as seemingly become less and less appealing since the Olympics were in Atlanta in 1996? I dont know. Seems like society has made it so that "cute" just aint enough.

On the serious note though, I think it comes from people living their lives a lil bit too hard and too fast at this point in time. Nobody's getting enough sleep; Old folk are piling on cremes and stuff to look younger and young folk wake up in the morning with one foot in the grave. Young girls putting on so much make-up it looks like their wearin a porcelian mask - all in an effort to be more sexy... too young to understand that sexy is a state of mind and not a look. Breaks my heart to see some of these "little sisters" tryin so hard to catch. They've been gettin the attention they've been askin for too. Gettin the pill at 11 is a serious sign that just maybe these lil girl may be tryin to grow up a lil too fast. They aint the only party thats outta control though, somebody had to bring the penetration to the party. Both parties are pleasure seekers and the kids that are poppin their little ugly faces out are very strong supporting pieces of supporting evidence that somebody's self esteem wasnt too good and just needed to feel "loved". I know there are a few cases of people just falling in love with each other and the feeling was just so strong that it didnt even matter what the two parties looked like. But considering the fact that people aint really tryin to get married no more, they'd rather be room mates with benefits, I dont think love is causing the birth of these "Children of Passion". I think its out of control passion thats causing these "Children of Passion" and this out of control passion is coming from low self-esteem; low self-esteem which is so prevelant among young people today that its digusting. At the end of the day they cant be blamed having low self-esteem if their parents didnt help them build it at a young age. But now, with all these babies having babies, nobody is taking time to find themselves; the low self-esteem is compounded - generation after generation, and it aint helpin if theyre ugly...